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Walk away


Dear all, especially to myself, how are you?

Lately, I realize that

When I start to search the thing that i want so badly,

at the end, I give up, and I still could not finish or search what I want badly,

and lastly, I just walk away.

This situation makes me think,

Me, myself, are easily give up, I'll try very hard and  at the end, i dont get what i want and I just walk away,

how. to. change this attitude?

It was really hard to keep going when you fail many times because you realize that the times keeps ticking and going away.

you feel that you are wasting your time, and thinking at the end you will fail again, instead of fail, you willingly walk away when thinking about how times really flies...

and yet, your problem still not solved.

Makes me really demotivated everytime i'm thinking about this.

Ya Allah,

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How I ended up taking Halal course

First of all,
During my primary school, 
I have fill the report card and explains about ambition which i have selected back then was a doctor, teacher and blablabal (don't remember).
During my secondary school, I got an offer from SMKA school which basically have to stay at hostel if your home was far than your school. At that time, the only reason that I accept the offer was (of course because my parent had ask me to) and I thought I will get many food during my school for stock everyday, you know...Really funny how a child just think about that, lay child think at that time was really unmatured..haha Next, I thought being a doctor is my last choice, however, as your wanted it most, the road is not for you. Allah knows best for his slave.huhu..
Than, just take a step to a matrices phase, 1 year, struggle like a crazy an start to socialize like crazy too.hoha.but still not enough for me to get through the requirement for doctor level.
Then, start to look thoroughly to the list of…