Everything happened for a reason

Salam,

just want to let it out to the world,

whether have you ever experienced, at once, when you have realized, you are wasting too much time, than you want to change and do good for the future, However, at the same time, there will be one thing always on your way when you try to change for something good. You try to focus on one thing. You trying to do one thing at a time.
But, at that precious time, there will be always something to shaken your determination, your focus, your new ambitions, just at that time.

Why is that happening ya Allah?

When times goes by,

Allah really did permit something happens for a reason,

As for today,I would like to share about what happen to my day,

As I woke up today,

its already 7 and I feel very sleepy , however, I try very hard to be ready for the 1st day of the week,

I'm going to library and start my day by searching for previous thesis,

around 8.45am, I reach at the library,

however, when I start to focus and be very determined,

I got massage from my father around 9.58am, he said,

"Can you come back? I have meeting at KL around 10.30, I need to use the car (refer to my car that I drive)"

at that time, I sigh very hard because, I try to start my new day with the new things,

But things not really goes through your plan, because He knows the best for you.

I start to think and ponder, why it should be like this?

when I start to focus on my work, there will be one thing start to block me or disturb my way.

With the heavy heart, I'm going home.

When at home, My spirituality start to become low, I dont know why it should be like that,

I just spent my time at home, while waiting for my father and younger brother coming home.

My father back at home around 3.00pm,which I think it already late, as I assumed he will be back around 1.00 like that,

I feel very useless, when I'm not doing anything at home,and then come at that time, my younger brother call me to pick him up at shopping complex in Mines, Sri Kembangan..

Then, I bring my everything which included notebook, hand phone and wallet.

When I searching the wallet , usually i always put it in my back pack, so that when I want to buy lunch, i will search at tthe same place, however, at that time, it did not really there,and I search again through the room, finally i gott it at my hand bag, which I put it yesterday for attending my friends wedding.

Now, I realize whole story from the beginning, when my father ask me to be back at home, and stay at home, so that i can eat easily, when comparing if he did not ask me to come back home, i will be starving at the library because I dont have any money in mpocket as my wallet already left in the room.

Now, i realize,

Allah has give me some guidance and test my patience about how i will react through this incident and how determined I am to really get your work done, Yes Allah, I know, I failed this mission.
However, tomorrow, i will start again, and think positively, anything that happen to me.

May Allah guide me and bless my life and yours too.


Amin.

Walk away

Salam,

Dear all, especially to myself, how are you?

Lately, I realize that

When I start to search the thing that i want so badly,

at the end, I give up, and I still could not finish or search what I want badly,

and lastly, I just walk away.

This situation makes me think,

Me, myself, are easily give up, I'll try very hard and  at the end, i dont get what i want and I just walk away,

how. to. change this attitude?


It was really hard to keep going when you fail many times because you realize that the times keeps ticking and going away.

you feel that you are wasting your time, and thinking at the end you will fail again, instead of fail, you willingly walk away when thinking about how times really flies...

and yet, your problem still not solved.

Makes me really demotivated everytime i'm thinking about this.

Ya Allah,

We just plan, only you can approve it or not,
We just can make an effort, but last thing, you need to give everything to Allah as long as you are really depends your decision after try really hard to ALLAH.

Maybe, when I try really hard I forgot to include Allah too,
Innalillah,

Allah,Allah, Allah...

Wslm

How I ended up taking Halal course

First of all,

During my primary school, 

I have fill the report card and explains about ambition which i have selected back then was a doctor, teacher and blablabal (don't remember).

During my secondary school,

I got an offer from SMKA school which basically have to stay at hostel if your home was far than your school. At that time, the only reason that I accept the offer was (of course because my parent had ask me to) and I thought I will get many food during my school for stock everyday, you know...Really funny how a child just think about that, lay child think at that time was really unmatured..haha

Next, I thought being a doctor is my last choice, however, as your wanted it most, the road is not for you. Allah knows best for his slave.huhu..

Than, just take a step to a matrices phase, 1 year, struggle like a crazy an start to socialize like crazy too.hoha.but still not enough for me to get through the requirement for doctor level.

Then, start to look thoroughly to the list of courses only in one university(my mother make a choice for my study field due to the fees which was the cheapest university among the others )-basically my mother make her choice by her own but with the agreement with me. the field hat i remember which course that I selected was,1. fisioteraphy,2.nurses, blablabalbala .6.food science and technology7. civil engineering.

Yes. Food Science and technology, that was my course in UiTM Shah Alam. Never thought in my mind that this course actually exist in the world and I will involve in this field.heha..

4 years of bachelor, meanwhile the others only spent about three years. 

I am trying to adapt and start to realize that this is an important subject and make me excites once in a while.

The best thing was I had been offered a chance to experience as an exchange student in last year for industrial training. 

First time ever, me myself experiences independently at other country.

Will never forget entire life.hoha.

Meanwhile, the others have experience in the industry field and facing the industry world, I still in the fied of academician field, meaning that working on final year report again.

As my sister had inspired me because she had taken her master level before me, she also trying to insist me to further study also.  That's was the time when I start to feel like taking the same step as her.

However, after I had my convocation, I dont really have money to pay up the fees of the university, so I had to deferred my study for 1 semester and start to work for pay my master 's fee.

Struggling in the 1st ever work in the factory of food, make me realize the real industry world.very tough.

Should have high patience and work constantly. but new experience of course.

holaa, make my intention stronger to further study in master level.

you will know the difference when you work with the lower position and the higher position when you work literally.

How I ended up taking Halal course?

As Halal term itself is the most important in our daily life, I feel the responsibility as a Muslim to fulfill the requirement of Muslim to help society about the halal matters, whether in terms of science or understanding. As my field background also related with food, it kinds of related in some ways. Nowadays, people are having a lot of Halal issue regarding the ingredient was non halal and, there are some people not responsible with their ettique about Muslim society and replace the ingredient to non halal food such as pork for  the sake of saving cost and etc.

When we talk about halal, we will think about food. When we talk about food,  people will eat and they will become one part of our body. As a Muslim, what will happen, when you are eating the non halal food , not a thayyib(good) food without concern about halal matters, it will indirectly give effect to our body, to our behaviour and health. It really matters when people start to ignore what was actually in the ingredient that they eat. However, lately, people start to realize and concern about halal matters when information about halal was spread out. I was relief and will continue my journey to finish my research in this field.

My field is to find the alternative of the non halal food(pork) to be replaced with the halal source such as plant source. Hope it can be something useful in the future.
Amin.

Ok, that was long.
Sorry. Have a good night then.

Wsalam.
was done and inspired by Aiman Azlan-famous vloger

25 Blessings that I am grateful for

I am glad that..

1. I am alive
2. I am a Muslimah
3. My religion is Islam
4. I have a huge family, grandfather, grandmother, father, mother, brother, sister, younger sister, and younger brother, friends, teachers, nice neighbours, and nice place to stay.
5. I am studying Master in Science, Halal Product Development at Halal Product Research Institute, UPM.
6. I am staying at my home near the place I'm studying.
7. I have a tutor that can guide throughout my research for my master.
8. I have a supervisor which have a quite number of grants.So, there's no problem for me in terms of the money.
9. I'm glad before I'm studying, I have experience 3 month working at bumiputera's company and make me realize that each drop of the sweat worth every penny that you got.
10.I have a transport, eventhough it is not mine.
11. I have scholarship.
12. I have friends that can share happiness, sad or stories.
13. I have finish my schools not really successful, but still good.
14. I have money in my wallet right now.
15. I still dont have any responsibilities besides my parent(still single dehh, woha)
16. I have a laptop, a handphone, wireless connection at home.
17. I can speak, I can hear, I can see, I can pray, I can breath, I can feel, I can touch, I can read due to the physical appearance that Allah have create me.
18. I had experience done internship (exchange student) at Bogor, Indonesia.
19. I had join Tarikat for stronger my worship to Allah
20. I have my license car
21. I try to fulfill my parents when I capable.
22. I live at Malaysia without war.
23. I still have my memory
24. I can eat peaceful
25. I am proud being only "ME"

Regards
-just as the feedback from famous vlogger -Aiman Azlan-

Mood cuti vs Mood kije

salam Sejahtera kepada kawan dan sanak saudara.

Ye. Saya sedang menaip, 

Dan tibe2 terpanggil untuk meluahkan segala.

Seminggu sudah berlalu.

Ye masa sedang berlalu

dan tidak menunggu.

Pabila kulihat kembali apa yang berlaku selama seminggu yang lalu..

Isnin - mood cuti masih berlegar di minda, mood kije masih menyorok tidak mahu timbul.

Selasa - Mood kije cube atang menjengah di balik tingkap sambil tersipu2 malu untuk bersemuka.

Rabu -Mood kije sudah berada di hadapan pintu.Jemput masuk dan baru ade mood nak buat kije

Khamis - Mood kije semakin memuncak kerna kije semakin rancak.

Jumaat- Sedang semangat tgh memuncak buat kije, bile dilihat, besok sudah hari sabtu,semangat berkije terase lemah,kerna besok seperti mood cuti menjengah tibe2.

Sabtudan Ahad- tak payah kate, kerna mood cuti melonjak gumbira, sedang mood kije tersipu menyorok di balik langsir rumah.

Acane nak siap kije bile mane mood kije da datang tgok2..besok da ari jumaat??!!

Apekah...!!!

MOod cuti

VS

MOod kije

Ibu. Emak. Mama. Bonda

Mak,
Ibu,
Bonda,
Mama,

Ku tahu kau resah,

Ku tahu kau gelisah,

demi menjaga keluarga yang tercinta,

keringatmu diperah tanpa putus asa,

Kerjamu kau buat tanpa penat dan lelah,

Tapi apakan daya,

ujianmu sering datang menjengah,

demi menguji iman yang tegar,

Namun,

Bukan kau sahaja yang terasa,

semua yang menyayangimu turut terasa,

Sakitmu hanya kau yang lebih tahu,

Kesannya keluargamu turut terkena,

Bersabarlah wahai ibu, bonda, mama ,mak.

Kerana dirimu yang teristimewa.

Di saat kau buntu bantuan,

Pintalah kepada Yang Maha Kuasa,

aku hanya bisa mendengar dan melihat,

sebagai anak yang tidak punya apa-apa,

melainkan

hanya doa yang dapatku minta,

bersabarlah..
tabahlah..
redhalah...

kerna dirimu begitu berharga di samping Nya.

Kehidupan.

Salam sejahtera kepada kehidupan

Salam sejahtera kepada yang masih bernyawa

salam sejahtera kepada yang masih menhirup udara segar

Salam sejahtera kepada yang bisa melihat dan bisa mendengar

Kehidupan

Satu saat kita pasti berfikir dan termenung,

apa makna kehidupan kita sepanjang kita bernafas di dunia ini,

Apa erti kehidupan kita sekarang?

Apa beza hidup kita dahulu dan hidup kita sekarang?

Jika dahulu, kita tidak punya harta, tapi kini, harta merata-rata,

Jika dahulu, kita tidak punya masa, tapi kini, masa sentiasa ada,

Jika dahulu belajar tanpa kira usia, tapi kini, hartalah matlamat utama,

Jika dahulu, bekerja kerana keperluan, tapi kini, kita bekerja kerana bayar hutang,

Ilmu dipelajari supaya berguna di kemudian hari, tapi apa guna pabila, hutang keliling pinggang?

Hutang mengikat kaki, hutang mengikat hati, hutang pemusnah hubungan, hutang punca perpecahan

Dan pabila ditanya kenapa bekerja?

Semuanya kerana hutang yang perlu dibayar,

apa guna belajar, jika kerja yang dibuat kini sengsara,

Apa guna kerja jika kita mengeluh sentiasa?

Apa guna belajar, jika harapkan gaji yang tinggi semata?

Apa guna nampak bergaya, tapi semuanya hutang belaka.

Apa guna ada harta, tapi tidak membawa kita ke syurga.

apa guna ada ilmu, tapi tidak memwa kita dekat padaNya

Apa guna ada akal, tapi kita tidak mengingatiNya

Apa erti kehidupan jika tiada Dia Yang Maha Kuasa di hati kita..

ALLAH. ALLAH. ALLAH