Burst out with the question " Are you okay?"

Hi.
Long time no see or hear from me.

Yep. As the tittle mention it.

I did burst out with the question.

"Are you okay?"

This is thoroughly when i feel devastated and sometimes quite depress with the lives.

Not that I am not okay, I am living my life.

But considering the job that I got still not par with my background education, people seems pandang me like'slacking'.

But I am happy with my earn, but I know it is not enough for nowadays punye current living, and got daughter afterall, and of course the salary is not enough for me to treat other as it just enough for my living expenses.

Of course other people is concern, but what am i feeling rite now, is still KIV.

As my brother said, you need to start now, by discipline your habit, like starting to read every single day, it is challenging.

As time goes by, now I just realize, already 3 month I worked here, 

Do you get what do you want achieve here?

Do you want to stay here long enough?

You are doing the hardwork, meaning that, lift the heavy thing, today only done the 5 L work for cleaning the incubator, you already feels the tiredness, is it ok?

How about the experience, is everything okay with you?

Everything is okay, and it becoming more complacent, where you already in your mode ''senang', and you are not applying anywhere, and why is that?

Do you still need time to take for a while?

until when?

PhD. I am done.

Using EMOJI emoticon to express what do you feel before, during, and after you completed your Ph.D. research.

😟worried. 

Seriously you want to pursue PhD?

😕pondering

Can i make it?Full of doubt with myself

😓Erk

That feeling when you make mistakes during lab work and need to repeat it again

That feeling when your paper being rejected after the countless amount of time

😃Happy and relieve

When your paper was accepted after 1 year of review

😄 Cheerful

When you get to spent time with your colleagues after whole week do labwork

😵Dizzy

When you need to analyze so many data and how to discuss the results

When you have due date near, and still not finish the paper work

😲Wow

That feeling when your friends got publish at the high impact factor journals

That feeling when you go overseas and make an attempt for dual degree

😱Shocked

That feeling when you dealing with your equipment, and you see the fire in front of your eyes when you are alone at lab done experiment

That feeling when you found out your sample was spoiled, and you still not finished your labwork yet

😰Sweating

When you need to prepare progress every semester and need to defend during viva

😣 Erghhhh

That feeling when you have issues with your supervisor, and you want to complete the phd quickly

😖 Scared too much

That feeling, when you overthinking too much, what happen if i cannot settle this?

What happen to me, I will failed tremendounsly, when i cannot solve this..NOOO

😶No feeling

That time, when you know your date of viva, and yet you barely feel anything...no fear, not confident, not happy, nothing..that time, I just feel, this is it.

😉Relieved

When i passed the viva

when I cleared out any issues with my SV

When I feel that, I am not alone in this journey

when I feel that, my family is with me during this journey

When I feel that Allah always there for me

👀 Searching

Currently searching for work and try any skills that I can develop.