Things I am grateful and things I wish to dissapear

.I have a house that I can stay
 My workplace is near with my house eventhough it takes 20 min to arrive there
 Start myday with the time that I want
I have my parent besides me
I am staying at home
 I have siblings
I have friends
I am normal
I am healthy
I have eyes
I can hear
I still breathing
I have nice and good friends
I have feelings
I have grandfather and grand mother (both sides)
I have money (eventhough it is not much)
I still can live
I Have happy family

Things I wish to dissapear:
My debts
My parent debt
High costing goods
High costing oil
My feelings to the other man
My feeling towards handsome man
My jelez feeling towards the others who have partners
my addiction to network
My worry to the future
My worry with change
My doubt towards my ability
My doubt towards the others
My doubt towards the future
My addiction towards insta, facebook, network
My imagination without an action
My hopeless feel without trying
My fear without trying
My hope from the human
My hurt feeling without spoken out
My deep feeling to others that dont even know about it
My laziness towards the future
My unawareness about the currect issues
My wish being healthy but no action taken
My trust that is not high enough for myself
My worry about the others highly than myself
My condition when people ask me to go out and I dont have enough money to spend
My unconcern about religious, other people
Feel afraid of teaching
afraid to challenge
afraid of a new thing
afraid of changes

Yeah.
Its full of thought today.
Coz i'm hungry.
I need to eat more than sleep.

Regards
NFAR

Kemalangan

Salam sejahtera buat diri yang masih hidup dan bernyawa.

Allah Yang Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang memberi diriku peluang untuk terus hidup di dunia ini.

Alhamdulillah.

Syukur.

Tanggal 2 April 2015, hari yang bersejarah yg boleh aku katakan dalam hidup aku sepanjang 27 tahun di dunia ini.

Allahuakbar. Allah yang Maha besar.

Tidak ku duga, di saat pulang daripada mengambil limau bali(sample),aku, driver dan rakan terlibat dalam kemalangan yang agak menggerunkan jiwa dan raga.

Jika hujan yang lebat, kejadian kemalangan sudah biasa didengari dalam media.ta dapat lari. pasti akan ada kemalangan yg berlaku.

Dan ini, Allah beri dugaan yang sangat besar buat diri dan rakan yang mengalami saat2 cemas tersebut.

Kereta hilux toyota yang dipandu driver, terlanggar divider dan kami berpusing sebnyk 2 kali di tengah2 highway di bernam jaya di km 401.4.

Allahuakbar.

Allah punya kuasa yang tiada tandingan.

Bila dikata "kun fayakun" maka jadilah ia.

Saat mencemaskan itu, seperti di alam mimpi tapi ia nya benar, dan aku sangat sedar apa yang sedang berlaku.

Kereta berpusing di tengah highway, bunyi shj sudah menggerunkan.

Nasib baik, kemalangan yang berlaku tidak melibatkan nyawa org,

 syukur, kereta tidak terbalik pergi ke lorong sebelah, syukur, kereta tidak terbalik menghenyak kereta lain, syukur, lori tidak terlibat sama..

alhamdulillah.

Masih terbayang kejadian tersebut di ingatanku.

dan terkadang ku menyalahkan diriku,
Disebabkan aku kah ini semua terjadi?

Takdir Allah, Rahsia Allah.

Tidak akan diketahui oleh sesiapa kecuali Dia.

Pernahkah kau terfikir akan mati?
Ya. Mati. Hakikat yang kita akan hadapi tetapi jarang kita amati.

Besok. kita tidak pasti bahwa kita masih hidup lagi,
Maka, laluilah hari ini tanpa kita kesali.

Allah ingin tegur aku dengan caranya tersendiri.

Dosaku semakin menggunung, tanpa aku pohon keampunanNya.

Allah Maha Besar.

Hati berbisik.

Allah.kau beri aku peluang untuk aku teruskan hidup?

Tidak ada perkataan yang boleh aku luahkan saat ini.

Allah lebih mengetahui.

Allah.

Allah

Allah.

14 blessings more

1. Today, I can use my father's car go to my workplace.
2. I have parents who are still alive and stay with me
3. I have brothers and still contact until now
4. I have a good health
5. I have realized that Allah hates Munafiq, its like u tell something u want to do it, but you not doing it.
6. I want to make things right
7. I try to stay positive
8. I can do what I want do.
9. Allah gives me reminder today
10. Allah always gives me strength especially on Tuesday.
11. Allah wants me to remind Him always
12. Allah sent me a helper today because I have wash my dishes completely today
13. Allah give me spent my time with my mother alone
14. I am still alive today
15.Allah,please give me courage to handle this life for this weeks and for the future.


11062014;0210am

Hurt,Terluka

Salam Sejahtera,

Have you been hurt lately?

I am.

What?

Why?

How?

Generally, its about something you must do, and yet you do not know how to do it, and you are doing by yourselves without discuss with others who are knowledgeable than you.

Like research itself, 

you are doing research, 

you must ask people who have experience in that field,

if you dont,

you will be lost, 

and you don't have any idea what you are doing,

and you dont know whether it is right or wrong,

At the final, 

you will be complained, 

you will be ask, 

you will be questione with a lot of question,

and yet, you cannot answer it.

It will make you pride hurt, your heart hurt, your worries haunted you everytime you thinking about it,

Then, you will start to realize, why I dont ask others at the first place?

And yet, its too late to realize.

Similar situation when it comes to the order that has been given by Allah,

in life, 

we have already guided by Allah through Al-Quran, to do what we need to do,

and to avoid what Allah has prohibited.

you being hurt when people question you and you cannot answer it,

but yet its your fault, because you not ready at all in the first place.

have you ever imagine this situation with Allah ?

You dont do, not asking the people who is more knowledgeable and have much more experience living in this world with the way that Allah want we to.

We just ignored.

We are arrogant.

We always fail to satisfy what Allah want us to do.

We fail to pray on time.

We are not feeling any guilty when we do sins,

We pass by prayer like nothing 

Do you have ever feel what Allah feels about us when we let down Allah's hope to his slave?

He was hurt.

It is not a good thing when it comes to "hurt"

and yet

Allah is the Most Merciful, Yang Maha Berkuasa, Yang Maha Penyayang, Yang Maha Mengasihani, lagi Maha Pemurah,

di mana dia  masih memberi peluang pada kita untuk bertaubat, merintih pada Dia, kembali pada jalannya, 

sebelum kita dihantar ke tempat asal.

Ya Allah, 

Ampunkan dosaku ini, 

Sesungguhnya aku penuh dengan dosa,

Ku biarkan diriku bergelumang dengan dosa dalam keadaan kusedar,

Mohon ampunkanlah segala dosaku Ya Allah

Hanya Kau yang Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Penyayang.

Amin Ya Rabbal A'lamin..

Lihatlah sesuatu kejadian itu dengan pandangan mata hati,

sesunguhnya kita pasti dapat kaitkan dengan apa yang Allah cuba sampaikan,

Insya Allah, hati akan menjadi tenang.

Jauhi sakit hati dari manusia yang lain, 

Kerana sakit itu tidak menyenangkan.

Aku maafkan semua orang yang menyakitkan hatiku dalam sedar ataupun tidak.

Wasalam

0308am, Sabtu, 9 Feb 2014

Draft

Draft.

What is the first thing come to your mind? when we talk about draft?

I think about correction.

Yes. i know.A LOT of correction.

especially the first draft.

At least, it shows that your supervisor read your thesis very thoroughly.

Then, I realize, what the heck am I writing?

Me to dont understand at all.

Sorry Prof. make it hard for you.

Make your self prepared anything in any what that u do right now.

People dont know what are you doing.

Only u know better.

No one knows.

But u know.

So, be confident.

Be strong.

Be prepared.

You know better than anyone else.

Good Luck.

Bismillah.

Wassalam

0107am, 4022014

Tarekat Naqsabandiah Al-Kholidiah

Asal usul tarekat

Naqsabandiah Al-Kholidiah

http://www.facebook.com/notes/toto-pranoto/tarekat-naqsyabandiyah-al-kholidiah/1457329773233

Tokoh-tokoh yang berkaitan

Tariqa Naqsabandiah Al-Kholidiah
Markas : Kg. Melayu Sri Kundang, Kundang, Selangor Darul Ehsan

INILAH SALASILAH TARIQAT NAQSYABANDIYAH YANG TURUN DARI BABUSSALAM TANJUNG PURA (LANGKAT), SUMATERA UTARA INDONESIA.

1. Saidina Jibril
2. Saidul Mursalin Saidina Muhammad s.a.w.
3. Saidina Abu Bakar as-Siddiq
4. Sheikh Salman Farisi
5. Sheikh Qasim b Muhammad bin Abu Bakar as-Siddiq
6. Sheikh Jaafar Siddiq
7. Sheikh Abu Yazid Thoifur Bistami
8. Sheikh Abu Hassan Khorqoni
9. Sheikh Abi Ali Farmidi
10. Sheikh Abu Yaqub Yusuf Hamadani
11. Sheikh Abdul Khalik Ghujdawani
12. Sheikh Arif Riyukuri
13. Sheikh Mahmud al Anjari Faghnawi.
14. Sheikh Azizan Ali Ramaitani
15. Sheikh Muhammad Babus Samasi
16. Sheikh Sayyid Amir Kullaal
17. Sheikh Bahaudin Shah Naqsyabandi
18. Sheikh Muhammad Alauddin Attori
19. Sheikh Yaakub al Charkhi
20. Sheikh Nashiruddin Ubaidullah al Ahrar
21. Sheikh Muhammad az Zahid
22. Sheikh Darwis Muhammad
23. Sheikh Muhammad Khawajaki al-Amkanaki
24. Sheikh Muhammad Baqi Billah
25. Sheikh Mujaddid Alaf-thani Ahmad al Faruqi as-Sirhindi
26. Sheikh Muhammad Maksum
27. Sheikh Syaifuddin
28. Sheikh Nur Muhammad al Badawani
29. Sheikh Mirza Mazhar Shamsudin Habibullah Jaanijanaani
30. Sheikh Shah Ghulam Ali Abdullah Dahlawi
31. Sheikh Dhiyaa'uddien Khalid Kurdi
32. Sheikh Abdullah Effendi
33. Sheikh Sulaiman Kurumi
34. Sheikh Sulaiman Zuhdi Jabal Qubais
35. Sheikh Abdul Wahab Babussalam Langkat ... Sumatra.... 1811-1926
36. Syeikh Umar b Muhammad. Lepar, Pahang 1936
37. Syeikh Imam Haji Ishak b Haji Muhammad Ariff al Rawa Surau Jeram Bangkin, Dong, Raub.
38. Sheikh Dr Jahid Sidek Sri Kundang.

Murshid:
Shaikh Dr Jahid Sidek

Markas dan Pusat Suluk:
A91, Kg Melayu Sri Kundang,
Tasik Biru Kuang,
48050 Rawang,
Selangor Darul Ehsan
03-6034 1204 (Rumah)
03- 6034 4772(Pusat Rawatan)

Cawangan:

• Kg. Sungai Kayu Ara, Damansara.
• Sg. Cincin, Gombak.
• Kampong Dalam,Kuala Terengganu.
• Johor Bharu

dipetik dari laman web : http://jalansufi.com/Naqsyabandiyah/naqsabandiah-al-kholidiah Penerangan dari Tuan Guru Dr Jahid Sidek berkaitan mengesan kebatilan seni bela diri di laman web berikut : http://naqshabandiyyah.blogspot.com/ Antara penerangan ceramah yg diberi oleh Tuan Guru Dr Jahid Sidek: http://alexanderwathern.blogspot.com/2011/08/intisari-seminar-tasawuf-dan-tariqat.html Ceramah yang diberi oleh tuan guru : http://www.youtube.com/user/csimsian Blog yang berkaitan dengan tarekat : http://afifi-an-naqshabandi.blogspot.com/2011/10/sheikh-dr-hj-jahid-bin-hj-sidek-al.html Testimoni rawatan islam di pusat rawatan islam Manarah: http://imanarah.blogspot.com/p/testimonial.html Laman web facebook berkaitan kuliah agama bersama tuan guru : https://www.facebook.com/KuliahTasawufDrJahid Laman web pusat rawatan Islam Manarah: http://binabudi.wordpress.com/primanarah/ Hanya keredhaan Allah yang ku mahukan. Tamat

R.E.S.E.A.R.C.H

What do you think about research at the first place?

I think about...

Laboratory
Research proposal
Grant
Labcoat
Table of Result
SPSS

What happen when you are doing your research?

Now, I'm think...

Doubtful
1 day at lab without eating- eating alone,start to feel lonely, as you are doing your research alone
not talking to anyone in 1 whole day, because no body at lab that you can talk to
progress meeting- want many2 result without think the reason behind result
presentation- slide show was done by 1 day before presentation day
result-standaard error high-not what we expected it to be-so many2-but not logic
REPEAT-again and again
not enough sample-doubt, whether sample enough or not
contamination-not realize,not read enough and start notice sample already grow mold
discussion- want to discuss but really hard to discuss
Literature review-need to read2 more
JOURNAL- already bulk in the computer, but not sure whether already read each of the one or not.


After doing research...

-will be continue later...