Thursday, October 27, 2022

Burst out with the question " Are you okay?"

Hi.
Long time no see or hear from me.

Yep. As the tittle mention it.

I did burst out with the question.

"Are you okay?"

This is thoroughly when i feel devastated and sometimes quite depress with the lives.

Not that I am not okay, I am living my life.

But considering the job that I got still not par with my background education, people seems pandang me like'slacking'.

But I am happy with my earn, but I know it is not enough for nowadays punye current living, and got daughter afterall, and of course the salary is not enough for me to treat other as it just enough for my living expenses.

Of course other people is concern, but what am i feeling rite now, is still KIV.

As my brother said, you need to start now, by discipline your habit, like starting to read every single day, it is challenging.

As time goes by, now I just realize, already 3 month I worked here, 

Do you get what do you want achieve here?

Do you want to stay here long enough?

You are doing the hardwork, meaning that, lift the heavy thing, today only done the 5 L work for cleaning the incubator, you already feels the tiredness, is it ok?

How about the experience, is everything okay with you?

Everything is okay, and it becoming more complacent, where you already in your mode ''senang', and you are not applying anywhere, and why is that?

Do you still need time to take for a while?

until when?



Friday, September 30, 2022

My marriage

 Saturday

1 Oct 2022

8.55am

Alhamdulillah, 

I am still living a peaceful life even though at my age I do not own a house,
my car is just under my name without I used it often,  I do have family living in my parent's house, till now...

One of the unbelievable events in my life, was when I went into marriage in 20.11.2020 because my younger brother going to study overseas, he need to fly back to Mesir for pursuing his study, the original plan would be in next year in Jan 2021, but then all is under Allah's plan who knows better in our life. During MCO, we realize that it's hard to meet others and invite our friends and relatives due to the limitation of the governance outline during the events, so, it comes out only limited to 30 people to come. 

This is when I realize, whenever I went to another event like marriage, I always see the bride cheerfully in the events and most people would be like this whereby you are being the center among the others. But to me, I would not prefer that, because I am a shy person, and I do not prefer to be in the center of events, and Allah did give me what I want exactly during my marriage occasion. Allahuakbar. Allah is the Most Powerful and Hear everything that I wish for. 

Everything happens for a reason. 

Had I introduced my hubby yet?
How do I know him?
Did I mention we know each other because my younger sister wants to get married but then, she does not want to get married before me, so she introduced her friends. One of them is my hubby. Of course, before I met my hubby, I do friends with several guys but not that many in my environment most of it was a woman at that time. 

So, he is the one that messages me first, and then when we first met, eventually at that time my brother ask me around, and within that short time, he agreed to meet my brother as well. That is odd for the first time met, he got the nerve to meet my brother. So that's it. Very simple and straightforward nothing like in the drama, meet 3 times coincidently, no such thing laaa  haiiihh.

This is our picture.




That's all from me for now. Thank you for still reading until now.





Thursday, May 19, 2022

Q&A

 1. What comes to mind when you think about growing up in [hometown]?

_ memories


2. What did you love to do as a kid, before high school?

_ walking and going to school with bicycle


3. What did you love to do in high school?

_ do anything alone without being lonely

4. What do remember most about your teenage years?

_ going to overseas with friends and have opportunities to study there


5. What do you remember most about your mom and dad?

_ mom always buzy with work while father always be cool person


6. What was most important to each of them?

_ their children


7. If grandma and grandpa had a message to you and their grandchildren, what do you think it is?

_ always pray and zikr and remember Allah, do the good deed


8.How did you meet [spouse] and know (s)he was the one?

_ he is one of my younger sister friend; and he approach me without hesitate eventhough know my education background is too high for some people


9.How did you choose your career and what was your favorite part about it?

_ still ponder

10.What made you successful at work?

_ at home, mental good should be healthy

11.What did you believe about yourself that helped you become successful and deal with hard times?

_Always remember this is not for long time, it is just phase, it will go away later

12.What times in your life truly “tested your mettle,” and what did you learn about yourself by dealing (or not dealing) with them?

_while i was metdown alone in overseas and sick, i feel very lonely

13.What 3 events most shaped your life? 

_ my sister aspiration; my mother workaholic; my brother's court  case 

14.What do you remember about when each of us was born?

_nothing

15.Were you ever scared to be a parent?

_ Yes

16.What 3 words represented your approach to parenting and why?

_Be leader; Accountable; Dependable; leader as a mom; who will be seen as role model to my child; accountable where is there any problem, where I can help anytime, Dependable whereby people can lean to me whenever there are hard time

17.When you think about [sibling] how would you describe him?

_brother- leader

-sister; accountable

younger sister 1 n 3friends

younger brother- little friend


18.What message do you have for [sibling] that you want him to always keep in mind?

  • Always keep it together whenever things go out of control

[Do the last two questions above for each sibling in your family]

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19.When you think about [spouse], how would you describe her/him? 

_ Accountable

20.What message do you have for [spouse] that you want her/him to always keep in mind?

_ Keep checking my emotional health

21.What 3 words best describe who you tried to be in life and how you want to be remembered?

_ Optimist

-Good Listener

  • Do hang out with me anytime you want

22.When they think about their careers, what do you want your children to focus on?

_ Studies on humanity with religious background

23.What have you learned about other people in life? 

_ They will do what they want, they do not think about you, so why bother, live your life!

24.What do you think the world needs more of right now? 

_ Love and sharing

25.What do you believe people want the most in life?

_ Money

26.What were the 3 best decisions you ever made?

_ accept rhe offer studies intern overseas

  • accept myself as they are
  • marry with my hubby

27.What are you most proud of in life?

_Completed my Phd

28.What were 5 of the most positive moments of your life?

_ Deliver my daughter

  • Completed my dual phd
  • Went to Thailand for 1 year alone
  • friends with my friends
  • Still hanging there in life without regret

29.What message would you like to share with your family?

_ I like to be where I am right now

30.What are you most thankful for?

For still  giving me change living my life rite now

Wednesday, March 23, 2022

Question n answer

 Question to be ask, will update the answer when i have the time

1.You could have one superpower, what would it be?

spiderman (for taking a remote control from the couch)


2. What would you do if you won $1,000,000 right now?

-sadaqa

-pay debt

-going umra n Hajj with hubby n daughter


3. Do you believe everything happens for a reason? Yes


4. If you could write a letter to your younger self, what would you say?

-Do what you want and not others decide for you

  • 5. What's something you want to do that we've never done before- Going to massage


6. If you could change one thing about your childhood, what would it be? Nothing, I am grateful for my chilhood


  • 7. When is the last time you cried? Last week


  • 8. If you could visit anywhere in the world right now, where would you go?Mecca


9. When did you know you were in love with me? Who are you again?


10. What's your favorite thing about me? Again, who are you?


11. If you could have dinner with one person, dead or alive, who would it be? My hubby


  • 12. What's something that no one else knows about you? My secret


13. What is the most vulnerable you've been in our relationship? nothing

  • 14. What's the most valuable thing you've learned from your ex?I dont have an ex


  • 15. What are the three things you'd save if your apartment caught on fire? Living things


  • 16. What's one thing you want to cross off your bucket list as soon as social distancing is over?Going outside without mask and without worries about others cough


17. What accomplishment are you most proud of? Completed my Dual PhD and survive delivered a baby

Beban kehidupan....

 [(Tidak demikian) bahkan (yang benar ialah) siapa saja yang menyerahkan wajahnya kepada Allah, dan  ia berbuat baik, maka baginya pahala pada sisi Tuhannya dan tidak ada kekhawatiran terhadap mereka dan tidak (pula) mereka bersedih hati.](al-baqarah ayat 112)


Allah tidak membebani seseorang melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya. Ia mendapat pahala (dari kebajikan) yang diusahakannya dan mendapat siksa (dari kejahatan) yang dikerjakannya. (Mereka berdoa):”Ya Rabb kami, janganlah Engkau hukum kami jika kami lupa atau kami bersalah. Ya Rabb kami, janganlah Engkau bebankan kepada kami beban yang berat sebagaimana Engkau bebankan kepada orang-orang yang sebelum kami. Ya Rabb kami, janganlah Engkau pikulkan kepada kami apa yang tak sanggup kami memikulnya. Beri maaflah kami; ampunilah kami; dan rahmatilah kami. Engkaulah Penolong kami, maka tolonglah kami terhadap kaum yang kafir.[Al-baqarah,ayat 286]”

Tuesday, March 22, 2022

Part 2: Thai language

 Ok, lets continue


Keng2: strong

Chom Thon : Temple

Term gern : refill money

Neung phan : 1000

Ngam@suwoi : cantik

Roy: 100

Ahan : Makanan

Ton Chao : morning

Klang wan : lunch

Yen : dinner

Tammai : why

Mea alai: when

Tao rai : How much..

Lien : coin

Tung/kapao : beg

Hong nam : toilet

Hong nam yu nai ka? : Where is toilet?

Jing2 : really

Ajan : Lecturer/cikgu

Ko thord ka : sorry

Im : full

Peag : keladi

Leang : yellow

Deng : red

Som : orange fruit/orange color

Fa : light blue/sky

Muang : purple

10 Pieces: sip chin/bait egg

Sour : preaw

Paed : spicy

Bhuppae sunniwat: tv series

Klam : cabbage

Pakaklam : chinese cabbage(big)

Maketaet : tomato

Khun : orang

Tladsud : fresh market

Yak: hard

Nạkreīyn: student

Jakkrit Thongdang ( I am forgot what does this mean)

Ngai : easy

Yak : difficult

Nan : long

Klai : far away

Rotfai : train

Nati : minutes

Nguang(sleepy) : ngantok(malay)

Nalaq(cute):comel

Loh(handsome): hensem

Suay(beautiful):cantik

Long(sing) :nyanyi

Pleng(song) : lagu

Lap fun dee ka(have a nice dream): semoga mimpi indah

Mai(no):tidak/tak

Kalam pli :cabbage/cuttle fish

Kalam dog: cauliflower

Neai: tired

Khon:person

2 Fong :pieces

Khao jai:understand

Shuoi chan duoi:can you

Withasawakam : engineering

Rean :learn

Thua : peanut

Nit= little/sedikit



This is where the place that we visited during holiday to pai

  1. Pai

  2. Mopaeng waterfall

  3. Pam bok waterfall

  4. Pai canyon

  5. Land split

  6. Nam tok mo paeng

  7. Thua paed

Fa rang -guava

Ooi - sugarcane

Bua bok (not sure what is the meaning)

Tuesday : Asakhan

Rabu : Put

Khamis :Pak prehat

Jumaat :Sut

Sabtu :Thao

Ahad :Atid

Nk pegi toilet -Pua chi

See Liam?

Jaturat rectangular

Wong klom ?

Nam ngen-blue

Pong talat(bangkok)

Nam tok(air terjun)

Churacak(shopping)


Monday, March 21, 2022

Thai language or experiences 1 part

 Bismillahirrahmanirrahim,

22/3/2022

Hi Blog!

Long time no see (LTNS). hee


Today I feel like doing something different.


I am going to post the Thai language or any experience that I have recorded or saved in my notes back in 2017  & 2018 at Chiang Mai, Thailand

Thailand language: Malay/English language Bai sip: slip for resit

Place where I had visited for the first time arrival: 1) Maesa elephant camp

Place or resort near the camp - Rinrada resort near elephant camp

Going to town by siong teaw (its like local transportation in Thailand (Last time before going to Thailand, I thought they only use tuk-tuk like in the movie, find out, they only travel in the city, but outside the town, most of them use siong teaw)


sorry for the picture upside down, later I will fix it

          Anumsen : rice noodle

Khai : Rice

Cha: slow

Leung leung : cepat

Rum cheok : good luck

Pototo : petrol

1st day I went to HALAL restaurant "Takawa Halal Cuisine"


Ok, my daughter already wake up from the cat nap. got to go.

Will update again next time.

NFAR







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